14 Cruel

Journal of Viper Lorcan:

September 7, 2012

I decided to start this journal to keep track of how things go in my life for the next few months. My life has taken a turn to the interesting side of the street. A few hours ago, I learned I'm 6 weeks pregnant or 1 month and two weeks. It seems the moment on my birthday with my boyfriend Zack created something amazing. Our own little baby. I can't wait to meet it.

I just told Zack about the baby. He was overjoyed. He promised to be there for the both of us for the rest of our lives. As I write this, Zack is showering. The TV is on but I'm not paying attention to it. Right now, my head is in the clouds thinking happy thoughts about my baby.

October 31, 2012

Today I am 14 weeks along today or 3 months and 2 weeks. It's also Halloween. I still haven't told my parents about the baby. In truth, I am scared to. But I have told my brother Vespa. He's been helping me get bigger clothes as the ones I usually wear got snug or to tight to button. He's luckily been very supportive.

Zack helps as well, but most of the time he can't. I understand that. I went to the horse stable again today. I was riding this mare named Betsy. Rose asked me to take her out since her owner hasn't been around in a while to give her exercise. I was walking on the trail when a snake crossed her path, a garter. She started to rear. I held on for dear life but still ended up on my butt on the ground.

The snake slithered off and Betsy ran back to the barn. I laid were I landed afraid to move. What if my baby got hurt? Is my baby going to be ok? The whole time thoughts of my baby ran through my head. I heard hooves pounding on dirt. Rose was calling my name. He stopped far enough away to not run me over and ran to my side. He kneeled and checked me over.

Not long after he got me to the hospital to make sure my baby was ok. The doctors gave me and the baby a clean bill of health and sent us home. I told Zack about my encounter at the barn and he just flat out yelled at me! I wanted him to be on my side but he wasn't. He packed up the few items he kept at my house and left me for good.

I ran to my brothers room and hugged him crying as I told him everything. We laid together on his bed as he tried to calm me down before our parents heard me freaking out.

November 13, 2012

Today is a bad day. A very bad day... I told my parents about the baby finally. I had to. I am 4 months along and starting to show. It's moments like this that I am glad to have my brother in my life. I sat down with Vespa on one of the many couches in our living room.

Vespa smiled at me encouragingly. I bit my lip, took a deep breath, and blurted it out. Our parents looked at me in total shock. I couldn't tell if they were happy or sad. Then my world came crashing down. They kicked me out. I ran to my room, put some clothes in a bag, grabbed my laptop, and ran out. Vespa came after me not long after.

Now we sit in an apartment together. Luckily, the apartment came furnished. Vespa is looking into getting a job over at the grocery store. I'm sitting on the couch writing this as Vespa ordered us Chinese.

When bedtime arouse we shared the bed in the master bedroom for now. I needed the comfort and he volunteered to share the bed with me and the baby.

December 25, 2012

My first Christmas away from home. Also I'm 5 months and two weeks pregnant. Last night before bed, I got a real shock. I was lying there trying to get comfortable when I felt something inside me. I felt it again and gasped. MY baby was kicking! I ran to Vespa's room and hopped onto his bed shaking him awake. He scowled at me until I told him the baby was kicking. He put his hands on my belly but frowned, as he didn't feel anything.

I sniffled upset that he didn't get to feel his niece or nephew. Then he said the one thing that made me even happier. "Don't worry Vi, I will feel them soon enough. Right now you go enjoy the moment. The kicks just aren't strong enough for me to feel yet." I nodded and he smiled. "Now get to bed so Santa can come.

I smirked and went back to my room. I've known Santa wasn't real since I was 12. But I knew Vespa was trying to cheer me up and I went along with it. I went to my room and went to sleep.

This morning I woke to Vespa shaking me gently telling me to wake up. I swatted at him and he just chuckled. "Fine. I'll go find some random pregnant person and give them all your awesome presents." I gasped and sat up. He led me downstairs and I gasped at the huge pile of gifts under the tree.

We both went to the tree and unwrapped presents with fervor. Most of the presents he got me shocked me. It was baby things. He'd gotten me a crib, car seat, stroller, changing table, infant wardrobe, diaper bag, diapers, bottles in case I want to feed the baby that way, and a new laptop. All I had to get now for the baby was clothes. He'd gotten me everything else! I felt bad cause the presents I got him had no comparison to this.

After Christmas breakfast we started to put the baby's things together and get them situated in my room. Everything was so beautiful! Now I can't help but smile as I look at it and rub my belly.

January 23, 1013

Not much has really happened this month. Not until today. I was sitting home on my laptop when my cell started to ring. I grabbed it but didn't recognize the number. I answered it and was shocked to hear Abigail Javen on the other end. She was inviting me over to dinner that night. I gladly accepted then ran to tell Vespa.

Oh btw today is 6 months 2 weeks pregnant. I just noticed with most of my entries I am so many months and 2 weeks... How does that keep happening? Anyway! I got to the Javen home around 7:15. I knocked and Abigail immediately let me inside. She introduced me to her parents. They asked me questions about my pregnancy and things of the like. She and her family was so nice. They were very sweet and caring. I really liked them

February 14, 2013

Today I got a real shock. Abbi was at our door with roses and chocolates for me. She says everyone deserves roses and chocolates. You see we'd been dating since last month. I've been in heaven with her! She makes my heart sing and dance with joy. I hugged her and kissed her cheek. Today I am 7 months 1 week. For the past month Abbi and I have gone out to diners, the movies, or just hung out at her house. Her parents have been really helpful when it comes to things like my pregnancy.

If I ever have a question I can ask them and right away I get an answer. I love being accepted. It feels great. I lead Abbi into the house and smiled when Vespa hugged her. We've all gotten along great. It's perfect.  

After spending time with Vespa Abbi took me to Olive Garden for lunch. I had such a great time with her! Then we went to the park to see the ducks. It was truly amazing.

March 29, 2013

Today I am 8 months 3 weeks along. It has become a pain in the butt to do much. MY hips constantly ache, my ankles are swollen, and my back always hurts. But when I am with Abbi none of that pain matters. She makes me who le and happy again. She always rubs my belly or hugs me. I love it.

I spend a lot of time at her parents' house now. We are always doing something like playing Wii or sharing a bowl of popcorn over a movie. It's just so fun being with her! I can't imagine anyone else to spend my life with. She is perfect. I have a ring hidden at home in my dresser. I want to ask Abbi to marry me but I am nervous. Very nervous...

April 27, 2013

I've given up on counting how far I am. All I know is that I am way past 9 months. I just want my baby to be born! I've had enough of pregnancy! I want to hold my baby in my arms. I want to meet the person who used my body as a motel and refuses to pay rent! STICK A FORK IN ME I'M DONE! I want an eviction notice made out!

As I write this, I lay on my bed after school. I'd just dropped Abbi off at her house and now was desperately trying to relax my sore muscles. I don't know how much more of this my body can take. Will I be pregnant forever?!

May 7, 2013

Today is the day. I was in school and all day I kept feeling lower back cramps. I know my back has had enough. It might give out any second. I put my books and things in my locker preparing to go home. Abbi walked up to me and put her arms around me. Today is her birthday. I reached into my locker and pulled out my present for her. A beautiful silver necklace.
She gasped as she opened it and saw the contents. I smiled and helped her put it on. I kissed her and rested my forehead on hers. I had a doctor appointment and an hour. So we headed to my car. Right as we got to the front steps, it happened. My water broke. Finally!

I sat on the steps with Abbi as she called our father to come get us. She didn't want me to drive my car in my current state. I called Vespa and told him to come get my car. He was mad and said he was rushing over to take me to the hospital. I don't want to go there! Luckily, Mr. Javen, aka Mike arrived before Vespa and I was being taken to their house.

We sadly though reached a roadblock. A huge one. There was a car accident ahead of us. Normally that is not a problem. But I got the urge to push. Mike told me to lay across the seat and have Abbi sit between my legs as I pushed. I pushed for god knows how long before my son Jonathon was born. I held him in my arms and cried. He was amazing.

Finally, the roadblock cleared and we got to Mike's house. Mike carried me into the house while Abbi carried our son. I laid on Abbi's bed after I was clean up. Abbi told me to take a nap and she would care for Jonathon. I nodded and closed my eyes. I woke not too long after and gasped. I had to push again. I shook Abbi gently and told her. There in her room I delivered Emily. Our daughter. Finally I was cleaned up again and got to sleep.

Not many people can say they went 9 months of thinking they were having a single baby when in reality they had twins. It is gonna be hard for us, I know that. But we have her parents and my brother to help us out. That is all I can ask for. This will probably be my last entry in this journal. But as I said. This has been amazing.

~Fin~